Rapture 89

Mysteries of a relationship with God

May 6, 2007

Joel Akin

Stir up the gift within you. The gift is the gift of the Holy Spirit. It is the Holy Spirit who will guide and will lead. It is the Holy Spirit who will help you. It is the Holy Spirit who will show you the way.

I am working with the Holy Spirit seeking a way to fight against the evil of this world. The evil is sin and sin is the evil that is in men. And men are willing to submit to sin when the desire carries them. And though I am just a simple man I am willing to fight with desire and with anger if needed. If there is a problem it is that I fight knowing men will be needing help and I know that I am not physically up to helping them. It is as if I had knowledge that would help change the circumstances and it would bring me to a place of help. But the problem isn't health alone but finances and that is of Gods desire for me. He doesn't want me to remain broke. Broke isn't glorifying to him.

Now it seems the deeper I go in prayer the deeper the other problems are found. They go deep into history and history is part of the story of things that were. And so if I am to be compensated it is that I pay for history with pain and with suffering. There are moments I enjoy life but those are the quest for life. And even then I admit the quest sometimes becomes a questioning time for me.

Its not just the accumulation of knowledge but the search for truth. Why? Because in the story I'm learning Truth is part of the quest for life. And that quest is the mention of time and life and hope and worth and joy and things seen but mostly things I can't see. And therein lies the dilemma of waiting for answers.

On one hand God has given us ability. And I can work on the Internet more and earn. But suppose I had to make a choice of recording some of the things God has done for me during this period. Things I write and things I pray. For there are amazing stories coming to men based on what is happening to me. Things I don't know how to share except to say it is like a child hearing a fairy tale and the tale is so incredible they dream of castles and dragon and princesses waiting to be rescued. And that is me. And I am that child and God is that storyteller and in a way we are all royalty waiting to be rescued.

Now some have said "The wait is long and I'm tired of speaking of rescue. I don't want it until my whole family is where I can be with them." And so we stop praying for rescue thinking "It doesn't matter if I pray." But it does and I learned that from God that one person praying can make a difference. And I am helping and that help is about rescue. And it is about helping those who are lost or those who are stuck or those who are hurt. Now maybe I'm not compassionate on all things but that is because some of those are weevils or we evil. I think that might be a good term for sin and any compatriots he might have. They are weevil and that is like a little worm that enters into the bread and tries to steal it away from the children. For God knows I am hurt. I had expected an answer by now and it didn't come. And though I love life I had a goal and the goal didn't happen.

And so I really do want to know why? And that is part of the story for it is the why of life. Why does God allow? Or why does God get stuck. For if God were in a man made dream we might call it a Caddilac. And the Caddilac got stuck and it was God at the wheel. He might say "This man made dream needs help." But we men had helped to make things and we had dreamed up things until God had let us be in charge. But it didn't work and the pain of repair was constant.

So suppose there were those who suggested God should let He who is God remain in charge. For He who is God is His truest name in Heaven. Now it does sound strange to call God that since God is God but there are those who respect the father and wish to present themselves before Him as Father and others as He who is God. And both are acceptable. And it doesn't have to be scary. God does allow men to approach him at all times.

The real issue is the Caddilac. God wanted a big car and so he built a big ship using ideas they had presented him. Now he did build it according to their ideas because that is what He wanted. And that is what he did before only it was a car and cars have wheels and wheels within wheels if you think of the spokes. And that doesn't mean Elijah had to drive away in one but it does speak of such things with mystery.

The purpose of this article is to help us to see that God wanted to remain in charge of things. He wanted men to submit and they did. But when sin arose men wanted to try to succeed on their own. And that meant they had to find a way of helping without relying on the father.

Now God does do things for men without their knowledge. He doesn't say anything to them and they don't care. Most men, even if they knew, wouldn't thank God for it. One is our air. Our air is replenished each day by the father. Through a door to Heaven. There are places God has created called door and window and they are the door which leads to Heaven and the window which leads to Heaven also. They are called doors and windows because there are more then one and they are places God can move things in and out for us to see. So if God were to move a planet he would open a window and let it out. And it would join us for awhile as a friend or as a companion. And if it were on the other side of our orbit we might not pay attention to it.

But lets suppose it was Mer and Mer was thirsty and wanting a drink from the well. Who then would open a way for it to get a drink if it was a horse? No one would. It would scare the living light out of us. But suppose God wanted us to have a new world and so he thought "How could I do it without destroying the earth itself?" and the answer would be "Let it rain." And so he would send it once when it was ready to rain and let the windows open up and let it dry the land so they could heal it. For it would need drying and that would mean it would be filling the earth with water all the way to the bottom of the well and we would be waterlogged.

But if someone like a reptile race came and wanted water like in the horror TV series V where reptiles wanted humans for food and earth for water then people would fight. But if it looked like the end of the world they might try to build up an arsenal bigger then the earth could handle. And that would create a massive hole or two in the planet but no one would really mind. It would just be there as a reminder of things that were.

Now the final act isn't going to be the end of the world. It might end but it won't end with a whimper. It would end with a story and the world would come to an end and the people would change and we all became something better. And from our view that is scary. Even for me it is. I think of change as something I want but as a step by step process and not a banging at the door with the law coming to take you away.

For that is part of the process of life and of hope. For if I hope for change then I know God is there. I can't hear as well as I would like but I pray. And in prayer I find the life of men is the key to things which is of grace. For the grace of the father is the key to things to come. God set a place at His table and said "Let there be hope and joy and peace." And He wanted there to be more then just women at the Captains table. He wanted there to be a man of the flesh. Now if you study Job you'll see flesh will be there. And flesh is meant to be pure and holy. And that is why God changes us from mortal to immortal so we might have life. For God says that life is meant to change from page to page and we are meant to increase. And that increase is part of life. I am part of life and I am meant to help. I know this. I know its hard to believe but in everything in life there is an answer. And that answer is there to inspire us. God set it up so we could see in nature the answer to life. It was there as history and as a record in the most common of things. But we didn't know it was there and we would laugh if we thought it might be that an entire universe existed in the field next to our home. It does. I guarantee you that God put the answers you need there. But to find them might take a child and his imagination open to what he sees. He might even know how to see it with a camera and record impossible images. And if some of them are real fairy tales then who are we to throw away the truth? For what is vain imagination but that which is sparked by sin and by evil things of this world. They may try to hide but they can't see the truth. They didn't know it existed. It was a mystery hidden in the weeds. And for us it was the same.

And perhaps it was for all of the entire universe. Maybe we here on earth are the only ones to find those things. If so people might ask if its a trick. Or if its vain. But me? I don't worry. I search for answers believing with all my heart that they are there and find them. In the most unexpected ways and in the most unexpected places. And when they appear I am gasping in awe thinking "God, how I wish I could show this to others. For the awe I feel is the awe of discovery. A shaking and a quaking of the heart for the wonder of things revealed from the eyes of man.

And yet I have learned to put on the child's eye so I might discover again the world we have forgotten. And it is a voyage back to the heart of Heaven. For there we shall all be as little children learning to see what cannot be seen. And if it comes slowly perhaps that is okay. Because I found these worlds through a lot of hard work. And I found them because I believed they were there. And they were. And so if you want to find them then ask God. And if he gives you an answer that is hard to accept then don't blame me or Him. For He is coming back to help us find life. He showed us life in the smallest of things. And it was there where Wisdom hid her nature. And it was there where she will find life also. For in the realm of life we are carried into the depth of mystery. And it is there where maybe life will hold us in a place of realm and whelm. And that latter isn't over us but around us. A place of mystery and wonder for the heart of love and joy.

And so the life of mystery in nature is the handiwork of God. It is the heart of stories and music and math and art and history and perhaps even prophecy. And if we had the way to find those things perhaps we could write this story. We could tell you of things to come and you would wonder, like I do, if these things might not be real. We would reach out to the handiwork of the father and we would shake because we would realize, as I did, the impossibility of it. For it isn't the work of chance but the work and labor of love. How can it be? How can it be so wondrous? I can't only answer it is there as a reminder to us that we are men and God is God. He looks at us and our history and He remembers the beauty that was. And He takes the very best of it and puts it into the land. And it is there to remember. He sees it when he searches and he finds it and it becomes a mystery. And sometimes he finds a way to put in an idea for the future. And if that is prophecy it is because there is one person who finds it and writes it and carries it up to the star we will call the Pole or Christmas star. And it is there where God will return from. And it is there will God will free us from tyranny and oppression.

And it is that alone which will help us see. And men will sit again and finally realize there was a man who told them things were there for them to find. And it will carry them into the nature of things. And it is there where God will carry the necessity of life. And it will be there where we shall sit and contemplate things together. For they are answers to life. And they are questions to things we could not conceive as yet. But we will have a way of life so complicated it won't make sense to me now. But then it will be fun and perhaps that is growth. For if I remain a child I become the mind of one who is afraid of change. And yet God knows what I am saying. That fishing is also about change but also about one thing. Catching a fish. And if I create a robotic fishing pole to do the fishing for me my joy is made from a machine. It might be fun to watch by video once but going out and catching it with a pole or a stick is the joy of life. And so that is what I mean by not wanting to change. For change is the ability to return to the simple things of life. And having time in eternity to do that without guilt or worry.

For me that is life and that is Heaven and that is joy.