Rapture 104

Where can I find God?

August 8, 2007

Joel Akin

Job 11:7 Canst thou by searching find out God? canst thou find out the Almighty unto perfection?

 Though I search I cannot find the work that God has made from beginning to the end. Yet in all things I pray so that i might find He who I love. My heart cries out day and night to the Lord and I search my way to see if there is any hindrance in me.

 I seek for God so that I might speak with him. Not to acquaint him with my path but to acquaint my path with Him. For I find if I can fathom the search of God then is it not possible that God is there? I know in my present circumstance I fight a war torn realm. Between us is a great noise of chaos. It is as if the fight went to the enemy and they came with clanging banners saying “You are losing this war” while one by one the battle is turned upon their head. Until the last man standing is me.

So what then is the battle I have finding the Lord? Could it be God speaks and I forget? I know he gave me a powerful word this past Friday night. It was the first prayer breakthrough and yet it was meant to encourage. Its not that God can’t speak to me because he does. But I have seen that Sin was the spirit who made me forget. He made me forget the promise of God. All I had was a day to think of and that was the promise of things gone by. I remember God was with me and yet in my heart I knew His Spirit was there. Only I couldn’t figure out how to get anyone to speak. It were as if you were friends with the family but you were a man in the mirror and the one staring back at you was a stranger but a familiar one.

And so in a way that is how this story worked. For I sought God but I want to tell you an update to encourage you who might read this one day. I want it to be a word of encouragement. And yet I know God has said several time relating to a ship that he is upon the sea. And the sea is coming to land. We who are men are upon the river and that is like what Daniel spoke of. There was a man who swallowed the river and it was a man who spoke of time. He was a man we could call see you later because he always was the one that was there. He wasn’t God but a figure of speech because he was you and me. We all came to speak of men along the path who helped to sustain the river. We were all men and all of us had a place in it.

Yet I was shown going to the sea. I had made it there and I was there to be guided by God to deal with things. For the beach was covered with things that cut. Burrs and thorns and perhaps even old bottles. And so the purpose of it was to clean it up. I did with prayer. I couldn’t actually clean it up otherwise because I am disabled. So I had to find a way of preparing my life for the onslaught of trash and garbage the enemy would cast my way. I could burn it or I could turn it into something. So I asked God for understanding. And so when the enemy cast things at me I learned. And the more I learned the better I got at dealing with garbage. So in a way I have ability and I have gift. And the ability is to know what real garbage is. Real garbage is the bill of sale which no one wants. It is the barge filled with waste that no one will take in any port. How the barge got it is the base of this story. For someone said “Take this somewhere and dump it.” And so the captain takes it around the world and no one will accept it.

So if we have garbage and it is like that then no one would want me. And for awhile it seemed that way. I was bitten by things that burned me out. And I am still wore out in a lot of ways.

Yet where can I find God in this story? He is not hiding. He is bidding his time and betting his wage on me. Not to bid is to give time to wait and to bet is to give bet to men that he can win a war with Sin just by having a man fight. And so when I’m hit physically, as I was just hit, as in the chest area with a harsh cough that comes out of nowhere, it is a spirit named Sin. And Sin tries to raise up a Vi creature that was part of evil. Vi was in evil and evil was el vi but I suppose you would add the s to make him Elvis. Or maybe go into business and call him Levi. Whatever we do is for fun but in reality God is here. Not on earth as we are aware but on a world similar to earth. It is here he is caring for the lost.

 In this story it is said God knew the way up. He did. He knew how to get out of the story at the end. Only he thought “What if there were no way back to this story. So he set it up that part of himself was here. That is the part I sense all the time. That is the Spirit of the Living God. And it is not the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the one who bears the law and the law is of fruit and measure. We are part of God in the sense God had to put part of His nature in me in order to find me at the end.

So if I search for God and feel a little sad it is the Living God is with me but cannot speak. It is like being given a tracker and so the Living God is like a blood relative. God can see it like a pulse from a distance and that distance is the space between time and Time. I live here with time but in a way time isn’t sin time which will be destroyed. Time is Time Thom or part of my name. I am Thomas or as Thom and Thom was the first pronunciation of Time. It might not spell that way today but it was the first man who was born. He was as Thom also for he was the father of Time. He was not Thom but he was Men. And so the word Men came from Thoms father. And Men is the word we use today to speak of time for man fell to time. That is because Thoms father Men was an evil being who wanted to control all things. His father had another name we call SeeTer and it was Seeter who had to be carried on a chair in a realm where I happened to be. Seeter was an ancient man and wasn’t quite sane. He thought he was either alive or dead. But with him was his family and they were not to blame for Seeters dark ways but some were like him and some were nice.

Anyway Seeter had to be carried up to the top of the world where he could destroy the one thing I had done. I didn’t carry him there but he was borne up by an angel we call Lucifer. Lucifer had to destroy the one thing that would destroy him and in the fall he carried down the work I had made. I saw him in a final moment of glory being carried away in a cherub cloud. Not the kind that moved very fast but at that time I was into things that made other people freak out. I didn’t know what had happened to me but as it turns out that will be revealed by God in the future.

Now God is here and yet he is also in you. He saw this as a chance to prove he was with us always. And so this part was with us but we were all so buy we never knew he was in our blood line. And so that is why earth pulses. Not because of the pulsar which helps women with their heart beat but with people who need love. We are people of the age but you who read this are people to come. That is people who know truth and no how to discern. So if I fail in this and this is cast off please forgive me for not trying harder.

Now as to people who come I hope you will see things differently. Knowledge will be removed from those with a tendency to destroy it. If you are simple in this way you will be carried to a place where you can fit in without hurting. And that is where you must be placed. And that is why I need training in things. For I tend to toss aside some things the world will call law. That no barge need leave the neighborhood. It will all be recycled. And what goes out won’t be garbage but gifts to men.

So where is God? I think it will come soon. I can’t answer fully without getting into trouble but I suspect God is going to answer it soon. Right now it is time for me to change into my travel clothing and head off to therapy.

Just remember that God is not out of place. He is where he should be in this story. And I will have fun soon.

Having fun for me is the gift of life. Each of us carries up to God a desire. We all carry it to him. He puts it into perspective based on need. All of us have needs. All of us have dreams. All of us have wants. Mine is to find a home where I can fish without worry. There isn’t such a place hardly. Everywhere there are those who put laws on men. And you can’t travel without your heart knowing if its right or wrong. So to own a place in this world means it is here I am trying to live. But if I wish to do things then God is going to have to change the rules. And that will take a while.

So for now the rules of this earth are bare and sterile. We leave out the disabled people from life. I see it almost everyday. We can’t do much because we are all poor. So the prices for camping become more then our pockets can bear. And no one gives discounts to handicapped these days. They figure we are all well off for taking others to court. If so it didn’t work for me as I lost. One of the few who had. And so I was lost without income except Government support. And so I fight for a right to have God change things. If men change the rules so harshly that once was free to pick up now entails mega fines then that is a law of men. I used to pick up rocks and fossils but now they are saying insurance doesn’t allow people into the pit and if you did go and found a choice stone it would belong either to the quarry or to the state or province. And if it were a significant fossil it would be turned over to the state/province again. And if you pick it up in the wrong place, like public land, now they put up a new law stating there is a 50,000 fine here in Alberta. At least without proper licensing and education.

So where does a rock collector go? Or a metal detector? On your own land as long as you don’t dig too deep. Seems you might hit a pipe so you have a law about that. And so our world is filled and filling with complexity. Where freedom ruled and people had fun now there are laws to hinder and fine us and take us to court. People want a piece of the pie and so they will eventually get it. But until that day they will burn in loss without measure until they give up what they most prize. And then the poor can have it and turn it into something of true nature and true value.