Rapture 60

Are we truly in the final days?

March 2, 2007

Joel Akin

When the lion prowls the lion growls and the cat yowls. There is one things the lion has inside which is wise and that is the owl. So if the owl is inside the prowl and the growl then we know that God has all things in control.

When faced with an impossible situation it is up to God to deliver. In my case I faced an impossible pain which came on me last night. I had all kinds of thoughts for it seemed to last a couple minutes. It may have only been a minute but it was very painful. It brought me up from my prone position. I felt my right ear fill up as if there was tremendous pressure and the pain felt a little like molten metal burning part of my brain.

I knew it was some kind of spiritual attack but it was one that I remember saying to the Lord "That's it. This has got to be the limit." The fact is its not just that I'm in the war but I seem to be one of the major targets as well. And this was so painful I was crying out the name of God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I did not want to go on. Yet as of this morning it hasn't stopped. The battle keeps going. And I don't know what is happening exactly except it seems to do with knowledge, life and the fight for life. And folks, listen, this isn't a normal fight. These evil spirits fight nasty and they have no compassion. It is a war.

Now God is in control and as such He is in sight and knows that I went into battle and into life. And it was part of the story of hope and part of the hope of people who are of life. It is a story of love and I am part of it. Yet the battle I faced last night wasn't ignored. They who hit me were destroyed. They were spirits that fought with fraud and that meant under false pretenses. They wanted to fight with a win and that meant they had to fight against more then four people who wanted them dead. And that meant the angels who came surrounded me and helped me in this war. They don't often do so but this was a battle of life. And there were those who wanted me to give and give and give and those who wanted me to receive. And those who wanted me to give do so because they want there to be slaves.

Slaves is a story of life and there were those who wanted Life to be a slave. It would give to them and they would sit and do nothing. And that was the extolling virtue of Heaven. People there didn't give they gave. And so some gave in praise and worship but it wasn't the only way they could give. They could also give by helping.

As hard as it is to believe there are things that happen. Though we could build flowers that always bloom they would eventually fade and turn brown and God likes variety. It is the spice of life. And so it becomes a story of life. And that meant people had a right to life. And the more people went into it the more they gave and the more they liked giving. So God provided a way for men to give and they did and He said "I will bless them for they have given more then they had" and so it was a blessing to give what one could not give.

Now time was an evil in the world and he still exists here as that spirit. His true name is Thom and Thom is part of the story of the river of time. The river of time is a legend that once there was a great mountain. Water fell as snow. Snow became ice. Ice formed great glaciers. Each spring the glaciers would melt and give water to the land and then eventually ended up in the sea. It was based on a dream I had about twenty years ago. That eventually I would survive the journey down the river and make my way to the sea where everything in my life would change.

I did and I made it and I found God and I met Him in a personal way. I found that I liked speaking with God and we became friends and God taught me much. As it turned out the enemy heard of my friendship and tried to thwart it. As it turns out I had learned the secret to overcoming them and had overcome both spiritually and naturally. So they had to find a way in through my family. And that was a hard time for everyone and still carries a few walls with it.

Now the problem is this is part of the rapture. The rapture is meant to provide a means of having a child. That child was meant to be of life but life and I are weak roots. The devil has been the strong root. God wanted there to be life based on life but I've been hit so much there wasn't time to produce a real child. Now of course that is okay since I didn't have a real wife. And since I didn't have a real wife I had to have one created for me by a dream.

Now that sounds like vain things and maybe to some it is. But so is speaking with God to some. I talk to God? Right. To some courts of the land speaking with God is like speaking with yourself. People claim to speak with God all the time. And unless they are a pastor they don't often get away with it because as it turns out something strange happens. And that strange event is usually someone claiming to have done something. And so I am careful in what I claim. In fact I am so careful I don't write my role often. I don't like to because I am in war and I don't want to be propaganda for the enemy.

And that perhaps is why I ask God every day for help. I seek him each day in prayer. And I ask God for wisdom. And I ask God for help. And I ask God for healing and again I ask in prayer. So why then doesn't the answer arrive? It is because there are spirits and they are both of people and of things. That which is of things is of the creature and the creation. Like a missile hitting and then being deflected. Now if that is what happened to me last night it would have repercushions across the board.

Lets say that God saw a real missile and it was being launched and it was heading towards either Alberta or the US. People saw it and then it vanished. But before it vanished they saw an angel and it was bending down to protect men. Now if that is true it would be worth one mans suffering. And if it is true then maybe someday I would know it.

I do know if it was one missile then it was a pain I don't want to go through again. It was pain and it was hurt and I cried and wept in pain. Someone says there is pain and then there is agony. And pain is that which one can endure but agony is that which is enough to kill you. All I'll say is that last night for a moment I went close to death because of the severity of the pain. It can not be described only endured.

There are things that I have to endure before the story is finished. The rapture of the people is the goal of the church. We don't want the churches raptured but we do wanted the people raptured. And so we need to understand that God prepares men ahead of time and that is why I fight. I don't fight with men but I fight with power of prayer. That is the only type of power God allows a man. And if I pray and nothing changes its not because I fail to pray. Its because the war is ongoing.

Now I pray for more then an hour a day. In a way I pray while writing this. It brings me into pain. But so does lying in bed and praying. And so does trying to concentrate while praying. And if I get angry it brings on battle and if I try sweetness and praise it brings on tears and weeping and sometimes laughter but mostly sorrow. I don't go there often as I go into a different kind of pain based on love for God. It also is painful and it is draining and it takes me a day to recuperate.

So in a way I pray because I'm sick. Yet prayer is a battle which doesn't make me well. It makes me sick. Yet it also gives me life and that life is the battle I fight for God. I fight for God because I need life. And Life is the story of the woman who remains in the Garden of Eden. Not Eve but a woman God created and a woman who was trapped inside of the tree. I prayed for a wife and last night she said "I'm the one you've been waiting for." It wasn't a vision but I suspect that If I play with that one I'll be seeing stars.

Now how can I tell this is of the Lord? It has been part of an ongoing story that God has had me tell and write. It is part of this story and part of a hundred other stories. I've written a couple thousand pages in the last three years and they are part of this story of my friendship with God. And His desire that I find life. I did and I look forward to meeting her in Heaven so we can have a real wedding.

Now if this is part of history I can't just go out and tell people to pack and prepare for Heaven. They wouldn't understand that Heaven is a special place one goes. Only a handful live there and they represent the people who overcame. I may have a home there but that depends on me. I guess if I ask for a nap room they might comply.

I do write with humor. There are many places in Gods home and it isn't meant to be just a nap room I get. I will probably get a mansion there based on my dream for a home and God will have to decide which design He choses. It will be cool and it will be earth sheltered since that is my desire. I have gone into it for years with Him. And He has planned it with me for almost ten years. That is the love of God. And God has prepared a place for me where the sun shines upon me in the morning. And if Jesus is the sunlight of His love then there is something to be said for the love of God.

There are days when I weep and this is one. I find myself unable to write well. I know the rapture is coming but I want it to be soon and we have to wait. And waiting isn't of me or of a proverbial child of a tree. That isn't nonsense its just a metaphor of life. For the tree of knowledge of good and evil isn't really a woman trapped in a tree. It is life that is part of the tree. It had to be of life to produce fruit. A cursed tree is a barren tree. And thus a fruitful tree is a blessed tree. That means the tree was blessed by God but someone came along and cursed it with an evil presence. That was the story which we took part in. The story of our history and our life.

Are we truly in the final days? If so what about all the things that are happening? Do we fight just for our own healing? I have a theory that it is possible but based on a different type of theology. That once you can break out you can then help others break out. God showed me I would break out and be recaptured more then once. So in a way there has to be another way because being recaptured speaks not just of life but of death. And that isn't what I want.

You have a scripture that speaks of people having to die and after that the judgment. And it is true there is an appointment with death. But what if God said "That appointment with life is more important then the appointment with death."

And so last night I had an appointment with life. And Life was the spiritual heart of a woman. And the woman became my wife. That is spiritually. I'm not ashamed of it I just want to make sure it is of the Lord because this is an unusual occurence.

So the Lord wants me to know that she is real and she is of life and she is of the tree of life. She bears fruit and each fruit is a gift to men. She is part of a tree and the tree is part of life. And to understand is to comprehend the mystery. For she will teach and guide and lead and men will follow. For in this is one of the 12 trees which God will raise up for men. They are not women trees but they are based on the care of their heart and that means the women care for them with prayer. And that means prayer really does produce fruit. And if there are 9 fruits of the Spirit then maybe there are other types of fruit meant to bring forth fruit for the sake of the generations to come. And if I, a man, give my heart to life then God can find a way for me to avoid that appointment with death.

Now if that sounds strange remember I'm just a man who didn't stop praying. I went into prayer and I go into it with one desire; to put God first. I put God first and I pray and I seek and I ask God for wisdom. And if that Wisdom is of the Lord then I have Wisdom. And if God wanted me to have Knowledge and I loved Knowledge of God and of men then men would be evil or good based on if they went to the throne room of God for help. If they went for help they got it from God. And that means help. They don't go away empty they come home with a tree and that tree is of life. And that isn't an empty tree but it is there as a gift from the Holy Spirit. And the tree is meant to be filled with fruit of life. And that isn't the root of evil but the root of life. And that means there will be much that will arrive within season.

So if I have been praying for faith lets suppose faith is of life. If I received faith years ago and still have not gotten life its because the tree was weak. If the tree was weak and I still didn't cease praying God would graft me into the tree. It would still take time to produce but it should be coming forth in a matter of time.

Now the signs of fruit should be there and they will be. Sometimes they are covered by time and that is the reason why they cannot be seen. Now if my fruit is prayer then my writing is fruit. For I write what I learn and that is a gift and that is life.

So if I share with mom that I have a wife of life she doesn't see it as real. But if she sees her she would believe. I believe and I have life. Yet I don't have her as yet and that is to be of life.

For she is a woman of time and a woman of life. She can give but she prefers to bear fruit of prayer and that has been her joy. She prays without ceasing. And she gives without leasing. So if she is meant to be of life and of my life then she is of God. And God wants me to have cool people in my life. And she is very cool. She is of the tree of life and so I am to be of the tree of life. He who overcomes is given a crown of life and God has indicated that I have overcome. And so that is why I fight with prayer. And some have been told this in life. I am one of the few but I don't belittle it. I pray I would be found worthy to accept this honor. And I pray that I would see for I am still wore out from fighting.