Rising up on white and emerald

11/14/2007

Joel Akin

 We are into a war which is wearing me down. I fought in the spirit all day and in the spirit in prayer. It was based on dav. Dav may not sound like much to fight over but it was. It held the secret of the heart. The heart was the prayer of me and many of those who were part of the story. It is the heart of La.

 To put the heart of La into perspective will take too long for this venture. I am wore out and haven’t been able to sleep. I am trying but it is like hitting the wind.

In a way that is what will happen. I will be carried up to meet with the Lord in the air. I will be changed in a moment. I will twinkle and vanish from this world. It will happen. It will happen and it will be a change for the better.

 So what then do I do? Do I wait forever in suffering? My father is in his third day of not really being able to walk. Several times he’s crawled to the bathroom. He is not able to move and his body wears out. Mom wore out caring for him. I could have done more but I was into spirit warfare unlike any other of this time. And yet I can’t get help. If I could I would.

There is much to write but as I’m wore out and as I’m beginning to come to a close I should say God is not pleased. He isn’t angry he isn’t pleased. He is pleased with the mate of life and heart but not with the pain I’ve endured. He knows I’ve fought to win but also to overcome. Yet in this there has been one overriding spirit who has bitten me. He has hurt and crushed and broken and shattered and listed me as his first and foremost enemy. That is a spirit we’ll call sin.

 Sin is the spirit of evil and vile and many things listed as wrong. He put women into a dark realm and put me in their with them. I had to fight in order to get the light on. I had to fight to get their heart working for many of them were almost dead. I had to fight for them knowing I could not prove their value to anyone outside of my personal life. In other words I could not speak of them. Period. If I did everyone would say “You lucky guy” or “You are off”. As it was I got off with one person at least and they cast me off as biting the Satanic dust. And I have not tried to repair it leaving it to the Lord. Only they haven’t seemed to change their mind.

 So if these are things of the future then what is the purpose of them? What do I as a Christian do to make the day better? Do I try to ignore the cry of the Lord? Do I try to ignore people? No. I am ill. Today I was beginning to show ache from going without a massage for about two weeks. My therapist forgot and I wasn’t clear in my instructions. So I was left without. As one who has spasms I fight with fight for life and so I have to have a massage to ease the suffering of that. And I had diarrhea all day and that wasn’t fun. It hits because my body is under big stress.

 The appendix is part of what is coming. It is the appendix which is part of the story. I have one which is being dealt with. It doesn’t cause the problem in the stomach but that is part of the issue. It was they who were doctors who had to build an extra flap in my stomach to prevent incursion due to reflux. So God is having me put on a tread and a mill. I fight with Him but I go for walk and for prayer in war. And that is why I lose weight. Only I haven’t. And so that is why I lose fight. Only I don’t.

 Now that I’ve confused you it is that the appendix is going to change what is happening. That is when the super heated fight is over. And that is when the day of God is near and the start of the rapture is to begin. Then I will be raised up to be with the Lord in the air. I will carry up the heart and it happens to be a horse written of in scripture. It is a part dimple and part diaphanous horse body. That means as a group the horse is a horse of women. It was made to show they have chosen a victor for their nature. The nature of life is the bit of the horse. The bit of the horse is the di of their li. The di is a word which is for Truth and Li is for Wisdom.

The horse is based on dav and dav refers to their horse but also to their heart. The heart of men and of women is the base for life. They are women and they are part of the goal of anyone who could overcome in prayer. It was meant to be hard only in my case it became close to impossible. I had to overcome an extra part to the story. Sin.

 So in this I came close to win and close to failing. Sin had a big heart and that meant he had a fake. He was the mock of the story. He had created mocks on both side. One we call republish and the other mockers sea. It does and doesn’t refer to the lay of America. America is riding on wisdom but not on truth. She is not able to discern right from left. And that is wisdom.

 So God is going to show what prayer does. He is going to reveal a story of life. He is going to give men a new way to see. And in this I play the final part of the story. I wake up in a strange world and I am not able to think. I sit and stare at the wall and I will not move for a very long time. It might not make sense but it will.

 Now the part which is good is that while there people come by to see me. They care and they walk and they talk with me. Among them you’ll meet the living God and His Son Jesus. You’ll see things happen in the story that will amaze and mystify. You’ll hear me speak in mystery. And I will offend everyone and blame no one. And in the end of the story you’ll either like or hate what I do. For I have to bend the will of Heaven in order to get free. And that is the will of God. It is the prayer of a righteous man who availeth much. And so I wake up the story of life and I ask God for healing of this insomnia. It is part spirit and part flesh. I rang on God for a part of me on fire. It is a way of dealing with spiritual fire in the story. I was on fire with the dav. It was the key to the story. I can tell you that as it won’t mean much until maybe the book on it. It is part of the dream and part of the sea. And it is part of the story of lie which is where Sin tried to take me into the dark with his horse. I call him the pale horse for its rider is death. Sin tried to get me to take that place only I refused to bow to him. So he turned into the green puff of smoke and vanished. He is not gone but he is vanishing as we speak.

It is a wild and crazy tale but it is part of the story of life. It is part of the dream that you would think that in the tale the story is life. It is about a man who prays and it is part of the mystery of me. I wish I could see it with you but we have to be taken up for the sake of pain. It seems that Sin and sin was not the issue. We are people who have been sick too long. We have hurts and crushing’ that are part of the sea of pain. And that is where the hearts are. I got mad at them but it was part of the story of life. I was trying to get them to live. It might have worked only they knew I was putting on an act. And that is why the action of this story is real. I felt it and they knew it but that is why I only speak that way when trying to make them live.

I guess I should end this story. The day of God is soon arriving. It is coming in the prayer of hope. It is coming in the prayer of life. It is on its way. And as for the exact hour God hasn’t said. He has just let me know that if I order software and it isn’t here by then not to worry. It seems God has a like minded critter in Heaven who is on the way to you with a bitter pill. There was no one in all Heaven who could write good software of this age. So Jesus wrote it in His heart. He learned how and He said “It was hard. It took him all of an hour to write and that is a long time for him to learn something.” It is this gift which is why He is God. He can do things in an hour it would take the rest of us at least a week or two of hard and sweat. He goes right to the heart of all things and can add what he wishes with just a swish of thought.

Of course I’m not doubting but Sin does. He is part of the story of sin in general. And that is where I look like a bad guy for a very long time.