Some who want to see

11/17/2007

Joel Akin

 In a final salute to the day I decided to drop you a few lines. I have sought God in prayer. Tonight was a different type of attack only I got into a bad place. In that position I fought with a spiritual hurt and that was me.

 Hurt is where I break off and try to be. And in the be of life I become a man who is hurt by something I call hurt without understanding. It leads me to a place where I cry and moan and when I’m out of it I feel as if I’m going to die. It is where I fight with spiritual players who try me in the way I move. It isn’t that I’m dying nor does it mean I’m dead just that they are good at the pain they inflict.

There isn’t anything that can be said about what is coming. It is with me that I fight but there are things which can’t be said for the sake of the fight of the heart. In that I mean if I try to fight with knowledge which is mine then I give out what is the things God shared with me to keep quiet. That isn’t the sort of thing I wish to do.

Yet what does it matter if I go and tell people things? Lets say God is going to deal with those who are liars. He is going to deal with those who are hurt. He is going to deal with a town in Texas called Loredo. It is the name of a spirit I’ve been dealing with. It is there  in this town it uses men and women without help to their soul.

Now it is sin or Sin who rises up and uses the sea to mind his store. He has a store there we can call Sirocco and that is the wind which carries the sea to the men of Texas from Mexico. It is the spirit which men of old had to fight in the Alamo. It is the spirit which was thrown out by those who died in the Alamo. They fought with it and it is the spirit which today we would say can’t exist. It is the big spirit of Sin.

 Sin is the one of the few spirits which is why God calls it an evil to this generation. It is responsible for all the evil nature in the world. It is responsible for those who are hurt and those who are crushed and those who are wise being hurt. It is responsible for the sea of pain and sorrow and hurt of women and of love. It is responsible for the one person I need more then life being broken and hurt and that is Wisdom. It is responsible for the may day series of women who are to come and help me in the future from heaven and Heaven.

It is the spirit I spoke of about three years ago as being the one thing which held down the women of wit. They were women held on the far shore of a wild natured planet. Only that was in the maize of the Amazon. They were real women who had been trapped in a world so dark no one wanted it. Somewhere in the jungle.

All these are things God is sharing as I write. And all these are things I wear out in prayer over.

The world is being dealt with. There is no new change that can be spoken of.

Now I do struggle with the before and after. A few years ago God emphasized to me that if we should ever be held apart that it was never his side but my side which held the two of us apart. And it was always God who was dealing with the situation. Yet I’ve struggled with the lack of response. After all God put the war into practice. He fought with me against countless billions across the universe.

 Yet the day of men is like the day of water. Water is like a flood. They come up and hit but they don’t spew out a vomit toxic in nature. And they don’t spew out a nature of lie. And they don’t spew out an evil nature of the soul and heart. These things tend to bother God. In the sense he can’t fight with an evil soup.

Like the squid the spirit of evil goes out and tries to be the one thing he can’t and that is God. God takes the true side of me and puts me into prayer. He knows I hurt but also knows that asking tends to bring out the worst side of the foe. And they are spirits which are so wild in nature they don’t think.

 Now God knows I fight and knows I am wore down. I have tried to fix me inside but that is part of the war I face. I can’t fix the part of me which is of the heart. They are made part of the sea of life for all men. We had within us the nature of life but we cast it off. And so we cast off the living and breathing price Jesus paid because they who wrote out the will did so without knowledge. They threw out the creature and that is part of why we fell. For if we don’t care for the creature then they won’t care for us.

So the fact is many are arrogant and well among you. And for this reason they assume that the sick and hurt and ill and diseased are sin bound. People who are bound up in evil yet are bound by it. Men who are well tend to make assumptions. They tend to make the day hard and difficult and often impossible for those who are under the influence of a broken body and soul. Soul being desire and flesh desire and body being the desire of the soul of heart and mind. Will being the part where we choose life.

So the fact is we are on the right path. We are doing the right thing. Even when it seems contrary. Sometimes it is necessary to set a path which is then result in progress. For if we share all then we share all without understanding. And understanding is when we can speak frankly. Only some things are needed as mystery. Mystery is the price of life. And life is the key to those who want love.

Now there is going to be a rapture. I told you who read this of a change in me. There is. A war but a war where there are things happening. It really is going on but the day isn’t over for a long time. I try to lay down but am wired up inside. And this wiring goes on and on and on until I can find a way of breaking loose. And that hasn’t taken place as yet.

 Now there was an interesting moment today when everything around me went to near zero. That meant I had background noise which I didn’t know was there. Like sounds and whispers and then being caught up in a sound proof room. In this case the john.

 Yet it was this thought which came forth that there was a war over finances. Sin had taken captive the thought of at least a hundred thousand men and women and a few teens who had tried to be the well of life. They had gone into it with hope and hope is the way of life. But something happened and Sin went to each one and carried them back into his grasp. And that is one reason the story of life isn’t over. For if Sin can do that then there is nothing I can do except keep on praying. And wait for God to deal with him. And that is the reason of life.

Of course the good news is there is to be a rapture. There is going to be a free span and that is when I get to be in Heaven. It is when I will be set free of pain and sorrow. And it is when I get to be dealt with by God for healing. All these are things I will be set free from. All I have to do is be a little patient.